Inception, big fatigue and melatonin intake (to help you sleep) ! Cowabunga !
CONTEXT :
Before starting the story, we have to put ourselves in the context that I had several short nights in a row, especially that weekend, while abusing the screens late at night, when my eyes were tired … I knew it wasn’t a good idea, but I needed to enjoy the weekend to the full despite the tiredness.
In addition, I had had recent stomach problems, because I had eaten too much over the past two days, as well as back problems, which I was only paying moderate attention to. All this made me even more tired than usual, but that didn’t stop me from pushing my body even more, even though I knew I wasn’t taking care of it.
I had to go to bed early on Sunday night, because I was going to go to a training session in Paris, but I wanted to do one more episode of Naked Director (at the same time, this series is too good !) and to “surf” a bit on the net before going to bed. Except that, without me realizing it, it was already past midnight.
Lately, to help me sleep, I sometimes take melatonin to help me sleep, in addition to my Dreem headband. In spite of that, I still had trouble sleeping when I was tired. I would gradually start to do micro-sleeps, before I really started to fall asleep and start dreaming.
The story that follows is full of Inception and micro-alarms in real life (perhaps even during the paralysis), but which I can’t pinpoint exactly. I was so tired, that in my dreams, I felt that I drooled a lot at times XD
DREAM 1 :
The dream starts while I’m asleep in my parents’ bed (which is not the case in real life): at the moment, my parents are travelling and since their bed is comfortable for my back problems, I sometimes squat in their bed.
Lying on my right side, I feel paralyzed and unable to move: I immediately realize that I have sleep paralysis. I didn’t feel any presence at that moment, but being used to having a presence, I said “hello” easily to call for the presence.
That’s when a rather strong blue or green light (I don’t know exactly anymore) started flashing on the cupboard facing my back. I had a hard time turning around to find out what it was, but I thought I saw a representation of a death head. I took all my strength to suddenly succeed in sitting down and seeing this light: it was indeed a death head (like the one on the picture in this chapter).
Suddenly I heard a female voice in my head telling me to be careful because there was a presence that wanted to harm me and was “behind my back”. More paralyzed, I quickly turned around behind me to see what was there, but there was nothing. I got angry when I asked the voice, because despite all my sleep paralysis, I never got a clear answer: “What is this presence ?! ». The question that remained unanswered…
All of a sudden, sentences began to scroll before me, on a black background, with the death’s head appearing with each sentence. It was actually another presence communicating with me. I could clearly see his sentences scrolling by a little too quickly. Unfortunately, I don’t remember any of them. Also, I don’t know if I tried to communicate with this “Mr. Death’s Head” or not at that time…
After that, I started to head outside, because I felt I had to leave the house. The outside environment was not exactly the same as in real life from a physical point of view, but pretty much the same on the whole. It was dark and there were flames everywhere, as if there had been explosions. Running towards the roundabout near my house, I saw a city car pull up, the same color as a buddy’s first Ford Fiesta. Inside was this buddy. We were starting to drive because we were being chased by two clowns in the car. These clowns managed to destroy our car quickly, unable to go any further. These clowns coming towards us in a threatening way, that’s when something weird happened, but which often happens in my normal dreams: my buddy changed his appearance to that of Joey from Friends. However, my own character was replaced by Rachel from Friends and I only became a spectator of this scene (however, being a spectator because I was stolen the role is new in my dreams !).
When the clowns arrived, they announced that the two of them were going to sleep together and Joey and Rachel were going to do the same (WTF ?!). I even said to myself out loud in my dream : “I’m not going to watch them having sex” (personal note : it’s true that I was going through a period where… “Mr. the judge” was super active at the moment… but this scene is still WTF anyway !). This dream ends on this sentence (LOL).
DREAM 2 :
I find myself lying in my original position on my parents’ bed, back to square one. I get up to try to get out of the house, but this time through the back door. With the door open, I realize that there is a large wooden fence blocking my path. I still manage to climb on it, but as I pass on the other side, I come back to my initial position (with maybe a micro-alarm clock in real life).
DREAM 3 :
Back to the starting point, Mr Death’s Head communicates with me again in the same way he did before, telling me clearly that I mistreat my body (because of the short nights, long sessions in front of the screens that tire my eyes, back problems…) and that his goal is to punish me for it.
I was starting to panic a little: I knew that in real life I had to be on time for my training and the time in all these dreams seemed extremely long, to the point of being afraid not to wake up in time. I replied a little panicked and angry to Death’s Head: “OK, I understand, I won’t mistreat my body anymore ! »
So I started looking for a way to wake up. I was heading for the same exit as in dream 1, when suddenly I saw my brother, who was much younger than in real life, coming down the stairs from my house. I tried to explain the situation to him, but he didn’t seem to understand. Because of that, I abbreviated by ordering him to go to my parents’ room to wake me up (as if I was just a spirit that had left his body). He started looking towards the room and started crying: he seemed to be afraid of something in the room. At once, I had the feeling that he was afraid of not finding me in the bed, of finding me dead or maybe even of finding Mr. Death’s Head (even if I doubt about this last hypothesis with the memories I have left).
BACK TO REALITY :
When I woke up in real life, I was lying on my right side. I instinctively lay on my back, sweating and thinking “wow!”. I look at the time and it was only 3:30 in the morning. My sleep only lasted two hours.
It was the most intense paralysis I’ve ever experienced. Not only was I able to communicate clearly for the first time with these presences in my dreams, but they also tried to teach me a lesson, the punishment of which seemed to last for hours in real life (according to the Dreem application, the paralysis would have lasted only 20 to 25 minutes).
There were so many things in that dream, that so many things remain in the fog for me as I write…
DREAM ANALYSIS :
First real and clear communication with the Mind Flayer. Although it is too early to tell, it seems to represent my unconscious trying to get messages across to me. Although the message was passed on as a punishment, I don’t think the Mental Flagellation is bad, even though it sometimes leads to conflict (see the dreams “The lightning”, “Buzz, Woodie and Annabelle” and Fara’s aggression).
By the way, that female voice… Isn’t that Spider-Sense ? Or more commonly our survival instinct ?
>>> Tag : drooling, clear communication, punishment, clear message, fatigue, Spider-Sense