Morning paralysis. Arriving calmly. Like this LOL
CONTEXT :
He was around 12:30 when I woke up that day. As usual, I turned on my cell phone to check my messages and Facebook before trying to go back to bed. Usually, I almost never manage to go back to sleep, but today I was super tired despite going to bed early and having a long night. I couldn’t get up, even though I wanted to. I went back to sleep, lying on my stomach, my head pointing to the right, towards my bedroom window, which is hidden by a piece of furniture in front of me. My dream then begins with my little “morning nap” of half an hour, I think.
For information, contrary to the dream of the day before, I didn’t try to provoke a lucid dream or anything, precisely to rest as much as possible from my heavy fatigue (although it is not really the case anymore, the sleep paralysis was for me very tiring the day after, even if I slept a lot).
DREAM :
The dream starts directly in paralysis, in the same position and in the same scene when I fell asleep.
Being used to paralysis, we all know what I did first ! I said in a calm voice: “Flageounet ? ». But no Flageounet this time… Boo-hoo…
Instead, I got a woman’s hand from the window hidden by the cabinet. She grabbed my right hand and lifted it slightly before putting it back, laughing like a witch. She continued to lift and rest it about every five seconds, laughing each time, knowing that there was a slight atmosphere of heaviness that appeared each time she lifted my arm.
The problem is that lifting my arm while I’m lying on my stomach is not a pleasant feeling for my shoulder.
Wanting her to stop grabbing my hand, I try to get away from it. I just can’t. So I try again, forcing it, but nothing can be done, even though I was close to letting go of it.
Je décide donc de me réveiller. Comme à mon habitude, je ferme les yeux, je souffle calmement et je tente de me réveiller (peut-être en tentant de me lever dans le rêve). Mais rien du tout : je suis toujours dans la même situation.
So I decide to use the old-fashioned method, using my arms to get up. I try to do this with all my strength and that’s when something new happened: while I was trying to get up despite the atmosphere that was preventing me from doing so, I could see like a shadow coming out of my back, floating in the air. This scene reminded me of astral exits (because I was seeing a lot of people talking about it on Facebook lately), so I stopped raising my arms to get my shadow back, since astral exits are not without risks and I don’t want to try it for the moment… Except that a few seconds later, I thought I’ll try again and try to make an astral projection, just to fight against the witch. But this time, absolutely nothing happened… For once I was ready… LOL
I tried to get up again by bending my legs this time. I managed to get up little by little and to show my power in front of the witch who was still bothering me, I started laughing like the cartoon villains… I had exactly the same laugh as the witch, but I was laughing against her anyway, until a white flash came to reset my dream so that I found myself in my initial position. I laughed less… The witch always laughs that much… 1 – 0 for the witch >.<'
So, by doing my “is it serious” face, I wait until I wake up, imagining what it would be like if I didn’t wake up in real life with my brother and my mom freaked out. I end up waking up a few seconds after my “is it serious” face, I wait until I wake up, imagining what it would be like if I didn’t wake up in real life, with my brother and my mother panicked.
BACK TO REALITY :
When I woke up, I was of course in the same position from the beginning, except that I was starting to drool. It’s been a long time. Well, not so long because the day before, I had taken a mini nap in my brother’s bed and I had… a bit of drool on his pillow too. But shhhhhhhhh ! XD
All this to say that I’ve been really tired these last few days and even after waking up, I had trouble getting up because of fatigue. It took me an hour and a half before the engine warmed up and I was fully awake when I got out of bed.
FIRST DREAM ANALYSIS :
For the moment, I may have just done a paralysis for the sake of doing a paralysis, but the dream seems to me to be a representation of my state at that moment: before I went into sleep paralysis, no matter how hard I tried to get up just to get up, fatigue prevented me from doing so.
Maybe it’s a message from Flageounet to tell me: “Watch out ! You’re very tired ! You know I have the power to spank you !”.
Believe me, nobody wants to spankfrom Flageounet, so I’m going to bed early tonight X)
SECOND DREAM ANALYSIS :
A quarter of an hour after writing this story, while making my infusion to help me sleep, I had a revelation to my tiredness !
Since a few days, by dint of giving my best to my website project, participating and helping people analyze their dreams on several Facebook groups, sometimes chatting with some of them in private message on Facebook (as I’m doing at the same time while writing this story) and thinking about how I’m going to keep the community of my future website, I realized that doing all this is pumping me a lot of energy without realizing it.
My paralysis this morning, which seemed almost insignificant at first, may have been there to make me think at last…
It’s true that there were no signs during my sleep paralysis that my tiredness was due to my activities, but it came to me like a flash. Especially since for the last few days, I felt that I was starting to put the concern of others with their paralysis before my well-being (that’s why my unconscious had almost blocked certain capacities, as I explained in the analysis « Je sais qui c’est, motherfucker ! »). That’s why I created a community site to have people to support others and so that I’m not alone in the face of all this…
Flageounet est vraiment taquin parfois ! Je vais devoir ralentir un peu le rythme et me mettre dans le crâne que je ne peux pas être sur tous les fronts à la fois x)
Note of 23/04/2020 : I was finally able to slow down more easily than expected the rhythm I had, by focusing more on myself and taking a one-day break from my project.
>>> Tag : Fatigue, impossibility to move