No sleep paralysis. However, the dream is pretty blurry and I’m not sure if it’s related to the Mind Flayer…
I had just realized a few days before, although I don’t want to have a girlfriend for the moment, that my chances with a particular chick were nil (you have to know that my unconscious has been pushing me to have a girlfriend for many years (as the dream “He’s talking!” shows). It’s been a struggle with myself for almost all of my life). As a result, I was both angry and depressed, even though I consciously didn’t want it to go any further.
The story of this dream was written two weeks after it happened (because I wasn’t sure if it was related to the Mind Flayer), during a period when I was having trouble sleeping.
I remember that there were several dreams before the one that interests us, but I don’t remember any of them. However, I find myself for a moment in front of a man dressed in a gangster style I think, with a suit and a grey hat.
He tells me that I have cancer in my right testicle, showing me a diagram with two circles. I immediately had a vision of a guy having emergency surgery on his right testicle.
Realizing the seriousness of this, I begin to panic severely, knowing that it could quickly become serious and that something had to be done.
BACK TO REALITY (for once, there will be more content in reality than in my dreams lol):
When I woke up, taking in consideration that the Mind Flayer had warned me that I was going to have tendinitis in an indirect way (see the dream of 07/01/2020), I started researching on the net.
Just by typing “testicular cancer” on Google, I came across almost the same pattern as my dreams. I thought, “Oh shit! ». Yet I hadn’t read or heard anything about cancer of the castanets recently. Moreover, I had never seen this pattern before (at least not in my memory). However, according to the net, I didn’t have any visible symptoms, at least not in the morning… Remaining vigilant as symptoms could appear at any time, I started to have a strange feeling during the day at the right castanet …
With all these coincidences, I started the steps in the week that followed to do an ultrasound and to go see a urologist (a thought to all these women in front of the gynaecologist: I pity you). However, everything was confusing for me because I hadn’t been sleeping properly lately and I wasn’t sure if I had been dealing with our favourite Flageounet during this dream. As a result, I wondered more and more whether I hadn’t just had a simple bad dream and was somatizing my weird symptom?
It’s been a long week. I was even able to meditate on the difference between not wanting a child and not being able to have one (because this cancer can make you sterile).
I finally got the results: clear. According to the doctor, it could have been psychological (stress in particular) or due to the fact that I started doing sports while running.
I had inferred that I had somatized. However, on Monday 02/03, I had this sensation again which came back suddenly (although it had since disappeared) during my jogging. I had deduced that with my left leg, which is a bit out of sync at the moment. It must not have done my ball any good, hence the feeling.
So I had deduced that it was due to sport and my leg being out of place and that I had to write the story of this dream in my Mind Flayer file. But you’re going to laugh: at the time I’m writing this dream (on 05/03), I started to have this feeling again quite strongly (it must have brought back memories in my castanets)… F*cking sh*t! I don’t know what to think anymore. Especially since it’s been three weeks that I’ve been having a lot of problems… T.T.
DREAM ANALYSIS :
Let’s make a point about this dream :
- I was going through a period where I was taking a series of hard blows…
- I’ve been tired lately
- The dream instantly seemed like it was trying to send me a message. But there were no apparent symptoms at the time…
- Symptoms arrive later in the day
- I don’t know how reliable is that dream
- Symptoms reappear overnight while jogging.
- The symptoms also reappear during the writing of this story.
In spite of these points, I don’t know what to think about the final outcome of my regained feeling. Is it the harbinger of a real concern or just psychological/somatic ?
By the way, on the 05/03, I haven’t seen the Mind Flayer since this dream. I don’t know if it’s due to my exhaustion at the moment. However, I tried to provoke its appearance, as I used to do before…
Dream related to The Flayer? I don’t think I’ll ever get the answer…
Note of 01/07/2020 : From a specialist’s point of view, dreams often exaggerate the things we experience. Therefore, it is possible that during the night, I had the castagnes who wandered around and got stuck I don’t know how. Therefore, in the dream, it is possible that it was perceived in this way… Dramatically special. That’s the bottom line in the story. XD
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