Another sleep paralysis because of my fatigue, during my nap… It’s starting to piss me off ! >.<
And yeah, I’ve got milk chocolate skin 😛
Lately, as I said before, I’ve been having trouble recovering: either because I’m an insomniac or because I stay up late to work on the site or to geek out on Rocket League (LOL). All that doesn’t make a good match, and on top of that, my eyes often sting from being so busy, even if I try to be careful.
Around 5 pm, I got really tired. I started to rest on my bed, so that I could leave a little later. As I rested, I noticed that it had been a while since I had seen Flageounet, despite the fact that I had provoked him two or three times since the last paralysis. However, given my fatigue at the moment, I figured that if I paralysed again, it would be too blurred by fatigue and I wouldn’t be able to chat with Flageounet (as I had done in previous paralyses). So I had to find a way to get as much rest as possible.
Little by little, sleep was getting to me, so I decided to give in to fatigue instead of getting out of bed. My nap started and we all know why I’m writing now… Haha!
DREAM 1 :
As little as I remember the dream, I find myself at night with two other people running away from someone, without knowing the reason. One of the two people, with whom I am running away, climbs a wall that serves as a fence for a house and jumps to the other side. I also start climbing this barrier, but when I get to the top, I realize that the fall is very high and that I might not come out unhurt because of the height.
However, because of the height of the fall and the person is unharmed after the fall, I realized that I was dreaming.
The dream having become lucid, I looked around to see if there was anything special. But there was nothing special. So I asked the question, to see if our handsome boy was around: “Flageounet ? »
But no sign of the Mind Flayer.
DREAM 2 :
I find myself in bed, just as I was before I fell asleep. I thought I was in real life, and as usual in real life, I had trouble getting up. I was even more tired than usual when I get up. I had a really hard time staying awake. But because of the time, I didn’t want to go back to sleep, because otherwise I wouldn’t fall asleep quickly in the evening. I could hear my brother chatting on an online game next door.
The rest of the dream is a bit blurry at certain points, but I remember that I still managed to take my cell phone in my hand to read the messages. I even saw a Facebook notification in this dream (the brain can make us believe what it wants !).
I manage to sit up, even though I couldn’t open my left eye (which is pretty tired right now in real life too). However, there was a problem: my field of vision was blocked by the image of my hand (see picture above). It was as if this picture was blocked in front of my face and I could only see it, despite the fact that I turned my head all around. I had to have my eyes half-open during the paralysis to have this vision (when they say that paralysis is a half-awake dream…).
All of a sudden, my body falls back to its original position on my bed. I realized that I had a rather peculiar sleep paralysis: there was not the usual feeling of paralysis, but rather a feeling of intense heaviness.
I try to move my body, but it doesn’t respond at all and because of the heat and the blanket, I was getting hot. Still not being able to move, I would get angry and start saying “Mind Flayer” out loud, in a slightly strict tone, because I thought at the time that he was responsible. I remember that there’s no point in getting angry, because you never know with Flageounet XD.
After I regained my composure, I finally remembered that the Mind Flayer was not necessarily at fault. But he, who can understand both my body and me, I try to ask him for a helping hand: “I will need help. Could you help me ? ». To that, I got no answer. However, while talking to Flageounet, I was able to start moving my right hand slightly (which I could still see as in the photo).
So I continued, with more insistence: “Mind Flayer ! Help me!”. I could move my hand and I finally woke up in the following seconds.
BACK TO REALITY :
I wake up in real life, in the same scene as in my dream, with my brother chatting online.
I didn’t want to fall asleep again so I wouldn’t get paralysed again. It was difficult and, given my fatigue, I was close to saying to myself “f*ck off the hour, I’m going back to sleep”. But I still end up getting up with difficulty.
DREAM ANALYSIS :
I realized how my body was at its limit. However, it didn’t send me any really significant sign to tell me that it was really out of order. But as you probably know, my body and I have a hard time understanding each other.
I don’t know if Flageounet really gave me a hand when I called him (I admit it sounds a bit big, because I could have just been in the process of waking up when I called him), but when I woke up, I told my body: “I understand that you’re tired, but we’re going to have to learn to get along, especially with insomnia. For tonight, we’ll go to bed earlier, so you can sleep as much as you want”.
I still don’t know if I’ll be able to get to sleep quickly tonight. It will depend on my body, but I’ll go to bed early on my own, taking melatonin to help. We’ll see what happens the next day…
To sum up, I will say that this paralysis was clearly caused by my body, rather than by the Mind Flayer, to tell me that it needs rest… In 251 years, vehicles have been built that can tell us that they have a problem through their dashboards. Why the f*ck hasn’t Mother Nature done the same for over 2,000 years ?!
And even without a light, I can better understand what the cars are telling me by driving with them than with my body… Seriously ! >.<’
It was time for me to blow off some steam XD
Note of 28/05: I had a little trouble falling asleep last night. I got up to go reading and went back to bed afterwards. It’s always a bit hard to fall asleep even after reading, but it was easier than usual…
>>> Tag : Tiredness